Restless Disposition

by Matt Monta & the Haymakers

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1.
When the day is heavy and I'm feeling the pounds And the sun sets slow as the road darkens down Tell me the things that I want to hear, Because I need to believe it. But you look at me with your sad departed eyes And you give me a smile and half-hearted sigh Saying, "Honey you'll never get your piece of the pie Well I, I don't believe it And it's a slow summer rising filling my eyes Slow summer rising filling my eyes Slow summer rising, on the horizon Slow summer rising. It's pitch dark now, turn the headlights on I never knew this highway could be so long With you next to me in the summer wind Well I don't wanna feel it And every man has his price but we're always for sale And we're nursing the wounds on our knees where we fell We are constructing our own little version of hell Cause we don't have the courage to question ourselves I'm not a born sinner but you can't even tell You just don't wanna see it. And it's a slow summer rising filling my eyes Slow summer rising filling my eyes Slow summer rising, on the horizon Slow summer rising.
2.
I've learned many hard lessons, it ain't no mystery There is a plan for everything we see And the random combination Of love and its frustrations Paint the present with the brush of history. I take refuge in the streetlight of my restless disposition As I stumble down the dark side of my dreams And I reap the consequence of being born in this position With the winds of change tugging at the seams I use my heart to hollow a place to hide my shame Wrapped up tight with faces and with names And if my fears are fully rendered By those trivial acts remembered Well I guess I've only go myself to blame I take refuge in the streetlight of my restless disposition As I stumble down the dark side of my dreams And I reap the consequence of being born in this position With the winds of change tugging at the seams. I never hesitate to go to battle over pride If I felt confronted or defied Ah, but what's the point in trying If your cause ain't worth the dying When there's nothing worth saving deep inside. I take refuge in the streetlight of my restless disposition As I stumble down the dark side of my dreams And I reap the consequence of being born in this position With the winds of change tugging at the seams. I burned right through my twenties in a smoky adrenaline haze Putting more life in my nights than in my days And to my lovers unrequited And to those I might have spited I hope you forgive my roguish ways I take refuge in the streetlight of my restless disposition As I stumble down the dark side of my dreams And I reap the consequence of being born in this position With the winds of change tugging at the seams, With the winds of change tugging at the seams.
3.
I see her there in my wicked world Just waiting on the steps Her warplanes are flying in the patterned skies But nothing's exploding yet And I wonder if she thinks that I'm insane When I pray for the bombs to fall down like rain Cause she's so beautiful Oh she's so beautiful I don't know how to act I know she's there in my forest, the trees are covering up her face And I know that she must get frightened of me When my responses are out of place And I wonder if she thinks my mind is sound When I dream of gasoline burning that forest down Cause she's so beautiful Oh she's so beautiful I don't know how to act I know she's there in my manuscripts She is hanging on the notes Her blue eyes stick like ten pinpricks After every word I wrote And I wonder if she can see inside my head And read the meaning into every stupid little thing I said Like, "You're so beautiful..." Oh she's so beautiful I don't know how to act.
4.
Got a little time, Got a little time to kill Gotta find another outlet Gotta find another thrill Cause it's mayhem in the night Back to business in the day There's a debt for vengeance That somebody's gotta pay They're sitting on the button and they're drawing up an ace But I've got a card with the president's face The president's face The president's face Michael, row your boat ashore Michael, row your boat ashore Now they're saying you can stay But you're not welcome anymore They'll take your family portrait And they'll throw it on the blaze Then look you in the eye and say "Go back from where you came" They'll make you take your history and lock it in a case But I've got a card with the president's face The president's face The president's face All behold the dream, The miracle of modern man With a snare on every atom And a life inside your hand This is the point-of-contact And the world is listening Turn my blood and bone to numbers Soul to electricity You can point me at a target, shoot me into space But I've got a card with the president's face The president's face The president's face
5.
You push me around You tug at my heart With your voice in my ear You think you're so smart You push me away You tell me we're through Then with every corner I turn I come face-to-face with you I pull myself apart Shredded seams and busted joints I don't remember why I came here I don't see the point Cause I forget how to love And I lose all my friends Guided by some patronizing Obsession to pretend You turn your vows into headlines Like the die had been cast You were the bride of the season Then autumn came too fast And in a few more years Your smile won't be so clever And I'll have cleaned myself up Have the puzzle put together There's no place for you here So stop wasting your time Catch a bus back to the Great Lakes For the man you left behind.
6.
I once shared a room with Tony Then he upped and I never saw him again And every week that passed Shot back like mirrored glass With my reflection crying in the wind Crying in the wind Crying in the wind. It gets so quiet in the evening anymore The silence rips right through your skin And the desert at night is lonely When you know that you're the only Poor boy crying in the wind Crying in the wind Crying in the wind. I can't remember the last night I slept I can't remember when my mind was clear If you think that you left nothing behind Well, I've got your song right here. Whenever I ask about Tony They say he was headed to the last place that I'd been They say he was screaming like Saint Michael While the lights of his motorocycle Faded away, the engines crying in the wind Crying in the wind Crying in the wind.
7.
When you're walking down the road And the signs disappear You gotta rely on instinct To know your destination's near But the sun can't be your compass In the middle of the night Or when the current overtakes you Cause you're putting up a fight Staring through the screen watching your life waste away Your alarm's going off and it's the middle of the day You're out sleepwalking with nowhere to go So you just wait, you just wait til it's time to go home. When you're finishing the puzzle And you lost the final piece But you convince yourself it's good enough That "almost" is "complete" Cause every single hamburger At McDonald's is the same And the party will still burn out Whether or not you came Thank you for your patronage, please return your tray Your alarm's going off and it's the middle of the day You're out sleepwalking with nowhere to go So you just wait, you just wait til it's time to go home. Time to go home, time to go home, time to go home. When you think you're getting close To where you oughtta be And there's light in the cracks Of the static monotony And you feel the breeze of freedom Come slipping through the seams And there's music in your sorrow And there's color in your dreams Then the back of your mind starts aching cause the piper needs his pay Your alarm's going off and it's the middle of the day. You're out sleepwalking with nowhere to go And you can barely keep your guard up to ward off the blows Of the headline contradictions that constantly show That you'll die getting high but you can't live being low In the cold, shameful spotlight of your cellular phone So you just wait, you just wait til it's time to go home.
8.
How come you got inside my head so quickly? Were we hunting something that wasn't there? Now my face is cold and I'm feeling sickly So I'll grow a beard and I won't cut my hair I have no idea what we're so afraid of And why these demons keep us up at night There is nothing around that's going to hurt us The darkness is where we need to shine the light. There is nothing that retains its meaning Words are lost in every passing day What we do right now will change tomorrow Along with everything we tried to say When you worry if there are traps before you You will get snared but what you cannot feel And you'll stumble off of your feet forever And crash on the rubble of what's really real Nothing in history ever came out perfect And we're no miracle against this rule So just accept that what causes effects And if you let ride, baby, I will keep it cool. Now I'm finished and I'll give you a moment To wipe your eyes off upon your sleeve We can mount this horse and finish the battle And create something we can believe. We can believe.
9.
Trying to make peace with your checkered past Trying to justify always coming in last Someday you're gonna blow this stinkin town But your chances of workin are next to nothing A mop and a bucket or a pizza oven Ain't something you can go to pound for pound But you smile wide thinkin bout June In the morning sun of your room But the storms rolled in by noon... And you're stuck in the lure of an alternate world In the embrace of a solitary girl Look at her dress as she spins and twirls But now you're just dreaming about dancing From the songs on the radio And your windows into relationships Are scripted reality shows There's no other Shelter or cover For a seasonal lover. A warning line was drawn, but you came on over Left screaming down the alley at a four-leaf clover Well, I guess they'll keep you walking for a while Tracking cracks beneath your feet can really help you think Maybe dinner and a movie or a couple of drinks Yeah, something to keep her talking that's worthwhile Lost in the night sky with July She was the only good reason to try And she's still the longest goodbye... And you're stuck in the lure of an alternate world In the embrace of a solitary girl Look at her dress as she spins and twirls But now you're just dreaming about dancing From the songs on the radio And your windows into relationships Are scripted reality shows There's no other Shelter or cover For a seasonal lover. Taking inventory: check. There's a beating heart But your anxiety is blurring out a place to start Every dumb choice seems to earn its own debate. If you had a second chance, if there was better weather Maybe you'd get lucky, you would get it together Cause nothing's ever been brought out to you on a plate But your heart beats hard for August She was keen and clean and honest But you were angry, tired, and lawless And you're stuck in the lure of an alternate world In the embrace of a solitary girl Look at her dress as she spins and twirls But now you're just dreaming about dancing From the songs on the radio And your only concept of love Comes from some scripted reality show There's no other Shelter or cover For a seasonal lover.
10.
There's echoes in the hallway from footsteps of the past Copper heels clicking over stones thrown through glass Of the windows of integrity and the windows of heart It's time to pull back together what's been pulled all apart. And I won't be scared I won't be scared I won't be scared I won't be scared No, not this time, I won't be scared. The pyramids are crumbling under the weight of their light Like a thousand bombs falling in the dead of the night Some may fall to their knees and others may weep And some may have secrets too sacred to keep And I won't be scared I won't be scared I won't be scared I won't be scared No, not this time, I won't be scared. The ghosts of our fathers have been buried in the dust Of two towers of misfortune and a powder keg of trust. And our guilt will sink deep in the cold tomb of the sea. The last chains will be broken and we'll finally be free. And I won't be scared I won't be scared I won't be scared I won't be scared No, not this time, I won't be scared. I won't be scared I won't be scared I won't be scared I won't be scared I won't be scared I won't be scared No, not this time, I won't be scared.
11.
The day is getting started, ​Fish are jumping from the water Mothers are laughing with their daughters And the sun is beating hotter Put your arms around my neck And wrap your legs around my waist Let me put a poem in your heart And kisses on your face And shelter you from the hatred and confusion Shelter you from the chaos and the pain Shelter you from material delusion Shelter you from a life that hangs by chains The oak tree's leaves are breathing And the wind is telling riddles The stones keep all their secrets While the blue birds sing like fiddles The orchestra you're conducting On the record in my head Makes me wanna take back Every single hurtful thing I said And shelter you from the hatred and confusion Shelter you from the chaos and the pain Shelter you from material delusion Shelter you from a life that hangs by chains. The old men fry up green beans And drink beer in the grass While their dogs lie in the cornfields And bark at cars that pass Put your long hair up in ribbons Let your eyes shine bright and wide Let my songs wrap you like a blanket When you're all alone at night. And shelter you from the hatred and confusion Shelter you from the chaos and the pain Shelter you from material delusion Shelter you from a life that hangs by chains

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WHAT PEOPLE ARE SAYING:

"Every member of the band earns their keep on this album, with Bryan Kossmann and Matt Paetsch's rhythm section keeping the rock n' roll train on the tracks, Jamie Molisee's lead guitar work dishing out licks, riffs, and solos with a practiced precision that comes off as almost effortless, and of course, Matt Monta at the helm on rhythm guitar and with powerful, impassioned vocals that cut through like a knife on every track."
​-- Dustin Meadows, BRTTL.com

"Monta and his Haymakers pay attention to detail, and you're whisked away along the band’s journey."
-- Abby Jeffers, In the Record Store

"'I Won’t Be Scared' is a triumphant ode to defiance. Its poetic verses have the feel of a folk song with a beat that seems to be counting down to the powerful chorus. The Haymakers match the emotion behind Monta’s voice, riding with it until the song reaches its highest point: the final chorus, when Monta’s fearlessness is most convincing."
-- Sam Kayuha, In the Record Store

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released April 27, 2018

Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Joe Viers at Sonic Lounge Studios in Grove City.
All songs written by Matt Monta.
All songs performed by Matt Monta & the Haymakers

Matt Monta: Vocals, rhythm guitar, lead guitar (Life that Hangs by Chains)
Jamie Molisee: Backing vocals, lead guitar
Matt Paetsch: Bass guitar
Bryan Kossmann: Drums and percussion

Featuring:
David Butler: Keyboards/B3
Savannah Freeman: Backing vocals (I Won't Be Scared, Life that Hangs by Chains)
Ron Freeman: Backing vocals (I Won't Be Scared)

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